Maternity Leave is Over

January 10, 2011. I had mixed feelings about this day. From the start of maternity leave I dreaded this day. I loved having time off of work, and loved spending time with Ellie. I had no idea how I would handle staying awake for 24 hours at a time, with just a 1-2 hour nap to hold me over. I also had no idea how I would handle leaving Ellie for the first time for more than an hour or two. I snuggled her during the day and tried to get all my loving in. When it came time for me to leave it wasn't as difficult as I thought it'd be. I was happy that RJ and Ellie were going to be getting some good daddy-daughter time together. I didn't cry, but I did think of her all night long. No matter how tired I get on those nights, getting home and seeing Ellie's smile as she wakes up and sees me makes it all worth while.